i wouldn't say that we're dating

so i saw animal collective last night for the third time, and, like the beirut show, i think i would have been better off selling my ticket.  i think i might be over going to shows.  who'd have thought, my whole livelihood ages 14 through 22.  i also think i am over parties, because i have not had a very good time at the last several i've been to.  maybe i'm just over everything that is fun.  

they didn't play a lot of crucial upbeat songs and people much bigger than myself and small bony girls (of which i guess i fit the bill) kept rubbing onto me and my sore skin.  saw a few ex-boyfriends and their new girlfriends.  saw some people it was really good to see.  got forgotten by a boy for plans to ride south together.  on the whole, everything was so annoying to me last night.  

today i had to wake up at 5 for a symposium in hershey.  i rode my bike to university city and there were so few cars on the road i didn't have to stop for any lights on broad street.  watched five episodes of the second season of lost in the car.  tried hard not to fall asleep while people were talking about financial education.   ate two huge salads at lunch.  on my tired bike ride home boys in a minivan threw water on me twice.  then i made dinner with a friend who i'm pretty sure at least a little bit hates me.  

i have to be somewhere around temple, though i don't know where, for an americorps rally at 8am.  

i think i am going to have to change who i am hanging out with, for my own sake.